I won…I think. You know the Firmament Lace Shawl I started a few weeks ago. Yeah, the one I ripped out 3 times? I finished Chart B and I think it’s right, but I’m not sure.
I keep looking at it, and it looks like a pile of holes. The stupid thing! I was planning to just pick a different lace pattern for this section, but I’m a bullhead and I. Will. Not. Be. Beat. Especially by a dumb lace chart. If it’s wrong, I’ll know it when I block it and then it will be too late. So life is not always rosy with my knitting projects.
There has been a lot of whining in our house in the last week and it’s getting on my nerves. The problem is…it’s me. Homeschooling is going really well. I’ve been making meals. That’s the good part. The bad part is demolition control. My house is just messy, and I’ve been complaining about keeping up.
Then, on Thursday, one of the kids, who shall remain nameless, got probation notices (yes, two!) for his/her grades. I blew a gasket. I yelled. I threatened. I didn’t throw things because I was driving.
Fast forward to Saturday night. I was sitting in my bed in the motorhome. And, yes, I was knitting. Hubby and one kid had gone home with their itchy eyes and snotty noses. Allergy season! Two kids were in the front of the bus watching a movie. All of a sudden, it hit me that I couldn’t very well chew on that kid for doing a lousy job on school work, when I was doing the same thing with my job. Ouch! I believe God asked me to give Kid 4 a year of my time and homeschool her. As a mom and wife, part of my job is maintaining my home. God doesn’t call people to do things without equipping them for those tasks.
So what does that mean? I’m fully capable of doing my job. Whether I feel like it or not is immaterial. That also means that the kid that is getting the lousy grades is capable of doing schoolwork. It doesn’t matter if that kid feels like it or not. But I’m older. The kids are watching me. They hear what I say, but they do what I do.
So, this morning, laundry is sorted and being done. We’re finishing up school, and then I’m going to go clean stuff. Because my kids are watching me.
Oh, I did get a treat in the mail this morning.
It’s Handmaiden Casbah, and the colorway is Sangria. I’m test knitting another project for Susan! I can’t wait to start it. This yarn is heavenly!
It kind of looks like our fire on Friday night.
I’m off to be an adult! Oh, and don’t tell the kid that’s in trouble about this post. I hate admitting it when I’m wrong!